In all the vague postings recently, I thought I'd break from the pattern and share something lighthearted and good...

I saved my company over two thousand dollars today. :)

I'll be the first to admit it, I get scared easily.

This evening I had a less than pleasant talk with someone about the past. Part of me really wants to run away from the issue. Another part of me wants to act all tough and pretend things are cool. Another part of me wants to grit my teeth and face things head on.

I decided to face things head on.


(But, I looked into flights "just for the fun of it" and, they're tempting. Very tempting.)

And then you threaten me...



Thanks. I don't know how I'm going to be able to continue this.

You are one of the hardest people to please. Actually, now that I pause and think about it for a moment, I think you are the hardest person to please. Nothing I seem to do seems to be quite right. I don't know how long I can keep trying to please you. Not only is it incredibly difficult to make you happy, it never seems to be good enough.

And then you pull the "guilt" card. "Well, I guess we know where your priorities are. This shows what's really important to you."

What the --- ? (Insert whatever but I prefer to leave blank because I don't a word that properly describes my feeling) All this time I have been trying to make you happy, to be a success, to do things how you want them done and you play the guilt card?

When will what I do be good? Not ok. But good. No if's, and's, or but's?


For the record, it really hurts when you play that card. It makes me feel like....no, I'm not answering that in public.

I spent the last hour and a half doing research for a paper for school/work. The amount of information available is phenomenal - to the point of making me contemplate quitting work and school, cocooning myself up in a library somewhere with my laptop and Internet connection and reading, reading, reading.